views of happiness feelings of unhappiness

I am going to miss this view but not this feeling of loneliness and unhappiness.

This year has been really hard for me, 5 days and I say goodbye to this view and these feelings.

But thanks to my best friend and to my landlord that I am still here trying to reach my dreams.

Maybe the second year is better year at university.

xxx LolaMirjam

She is...

This was my university project, to do a zine.

My zine is about breaking stereotypes in Finland, my personal view of Finnish fashion and being Finnish.

Enjoy!

p.s. I am planning to do another zine on summer, let me know if you want to be part of it.

My portfolio is online, http://lauramirjam.wix.com/portfolio

 xxx LolaMirjam

fucking idiot

I saw this "street art" today while walking home.

I have been sick for awhile, I lost my voice and got a little flu.

My mood is low in every way. For the first time I really feel lonely. 

Like I have said before, I don't have that many friends here, and mostly those "friends" are more like people I say hi to. I don't feel like they understand me or I understand them. We are just so different so many ways. Or I just have different opinion what is a friend. To me friend is someone who hugs you when you feel down, asks you how are you, accept you the way you are, laugh with you, is nice to you and someone who is real to you and don't pretend.

Right now I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about my feelings etc.

I know that I have known these people only for 9 months but I just don't feel connected with them. Maybe there is something wrong with me, maybe it is my age.

I just feel miserable.

One week more and this year is over, will see what happens after that. 

xxx LolaMirjam

Made Of Paper

I did a shoot at university. I also made these necklaces.

"Made of paper"

"Jewelry has the power to be this one little thing that can make you feel unique."

xxx LolaMirjam

I´m a loner but not lonely.

"I´m a loner but not lonely."

But I prefer having real friends than fake ones.

Most of the time I'm all by myself because I don't have that many friends here but I'm also that kind of person that for me it is okay to be alone. I enjoy being alone, I don't have problem with that. 

But of course I miss the time with my friends back home. They know me and appreciate who I am.

Why it is so difficult to make friends here in England?

xxx LolaMirjam

stay inspired

 Stay inspired...

xxx LolaMirjam

he knows the body

First project.

Have you ever heard about designer Azzedine Alaia?

If your answer is no, google it. He is AMAZING designer, I think there is no one who knows woman´s body better than him.

At the beginning I didn't even know who he is.

Even though I was sometimes annoyed that I got a designer that I didn't even know, now I´m so glad that I got him. 

I got to know amazing, unique, timeless designer.

It was really hard project, I mean he has really unique style and he don't follow fashion. There was days that I was ready to cry and go home. And I didn't expect that we were doing our first projects in group. But of course that is a great way to get to know each other.

One month, all about Alaia, his store, his life, designs, future, research book about him, people he has worked with etc.  

 My highlight was a visit to his store,where I saw the real beauty of his designs. There I realized why women love him, like Naomi Campbell and so many more.

He has a lot of loyal customers. 

Alaia cuts his own clothing patterns and sews the samples himself.Alaïa has always made the clothes he wants to make, at his rhythm, showing them when it pleases him, selling only to stores he likes and delivering them when he wants.The fashion shows are only for his friends and family.

some inspiration pics...

He is just so unique.
We booked a model from Instagram, we borrowed clothes from our friends and photographed in studio.
We wanted something simple but stylish at the same time.

This is our photoshoot inspired by Azzedine Alaia.

So you understand what I mean...

http://senatus.net/album/view/13192/

Do you love him now?

xxx LolaMirjam

can you read my mind?

This week has been so tiring.

I am thinking and thinking, I am thinking everything.

My family, uni, work, friends, my life, my goals, past and future.

And when your mind is full on thoughts it is hard to concentrate on anything.

I think it might be the darkness, this time of the year or month,hah.

But you know what I try to stay positive, from tomorrow, hah.

Tonight I am just going to listen Adele (I just bought her new album) and drink tee(so British). I guess I'm getting old or boring.

Is comical to listen heartbreaking songs when you have been single for your entire life, where is he? I guess he is hiding from me...

Like I said there is lot of going on in my mind.

I am surprised that I even have time to think.

Tomorrow is new, better day.

What is on your mind?

xxx LolaMirjam

behind the scenes...

We were test shooting the Serge Gainsbourg-hat project...

I don´t like to be in front of the camera but sometimes you have to sacrifice for your uni project.

xxx LolaMirjam

Reflection

Reflection

This was our individual part of the first project.

My inspiration was designer Azzedine Alaia.

Actually the first unit was all about Azzedine Alaia. It was the first time I heard about him. We (my group) needed to do photoshoot and presentation and then individually, research book, edit the image and then do a project about his future.

For the future project I painted myself all white and projected his designs to the wall. I went to stand in front of the wall so I was part of the designs.

Azzedine Alaia studied sculptor when he was younger so my idea was to be a human sculpture and that is why I was all white.

My friend Elina took all the images.

It was really exciting experience, something different.

And when you think about the tools we had, the outcome is really good! Because we actually used the projector that teachers use in the classroom. 

What you think? Was it worth it to paint myself white? I think I still have some paint in my ear...
Oh and I got to say,Azzedine Alaia is amazing designer. I fell in love with all the garments, especially when I visited his store and heard about his story, amazing!

xxx LolaMirjam