one of a kind

"I have pimples, I have blackheads, my face is not symmetrical, I have scars, I have moles, things that I don't like and I am insecure about. My face is round shape like a lollipop, my cheeks are like big red apples and my nose is like a potato (I was called potato nose when I was little). My eyes are like brown almonds, small but round.  And my teeth, my horse teeth like one girl said once.
I have dark features, more like south european. Almost daily I have to convince that I am Finnish and my both parents are 100% born in Finland, people even ask am I sure, like I don't know where I am from.

At first it was really difficult to look different, not like my friends. Some girls bullied me at school, having braces and glasses didn’t help at all. I standed out in the crowd, and when you are a kid you want to look like everyone else. It wasn’t cool to look different. I had issues about the way my face looked, the way I looked.

It is sad how mean people can be,when you are a kid  and even when you are an adult.

I don’t need your negative words about my look, I know how I look and what I like or don’t like about it.

Growing up has been a lot of struggle, I still hear how my nose looks ugly or my skin is too dark on summer but now my own attitude is different. I don’t care, uniqueness is richness. I don’t fit in to the Finnish label, and that is more than fine.  I appreciate and highlight my differences, even my potato nose and horse teeth, I love to stand out and tell people that I am Finnish, I am just breaking the stereotypes. I am one of a kind!"

This is my article for my Zine I made at university. I wish I could always be as confident as the last words I wrote in the article but the reality is I am quite insecure person.

So please girls, boys focus on the good and beautiful things that people have, leave the negativity and bullying, no one wins with bad attitude.

xxx LolaMirjam